October

Today is October 1st. The start of my favorite month. All of my favorite things fall in October. In seven days I will be celebrating my 31st birthday, 13 days after that I will be saying "I Do" to the man of my dreams, and 10 days later we will be celebrating my favorite holiday, Halloween.

I am still deciding if I want to do anything for my birthday this year and if so what I want to do. I love my birthday and usually enjoy going all out to celebrate it. However this year it just feels like another thing that is going to cost money and doesn't need to be celebrated beyond thanking people for their birthday wishes.

I am excited to say "I Do" but a little sad that we have to wait to have the big party with all our friends and family. I am still excited to finally be able to call him my husband and to know that we have tie our lives together. I bought a simple little white dress, to make it feel more real, and will be wearing my FABULOUS orange shoes that I spent a tiny fortune on. And I know that this is what is we need to do right now to get our lives going in the right direction. I can't wait for our 5th anniversary when I get to make my Halloween wedding dreams come true.

I still need to get a few things for my Star Butterfly Halloween costume, even though I currently have no plans for Halloween other than going to work.

This month I am trying to be way better about planning things and using the expensive planner I bought. I want to try to plan out my meals for each week and write out grocery lists. My other goals this month include being way more active. I want to be able to do things with becoming winded right away. I know I just need to commit to being more active. I think I will set myself up a reward chart and treat myself to things I don't usually allow myself to spend money on if I am active for a set amount of time on a set amount of days a week.

That should help me be more active and help me be a little selfish and teach me some good self care habits. I need to work on making my feelings and wants more important to me and to others. I want to try to write here more often. Maybe do book reviews for all the books I read. Craft project updates. A little of everything while I try to find my place in the world now that I am an adult and no longer live at home and am about to make a big change to my life.